I haven't worked out nor have I been counting calories. I have a work event to go to and I cant fit anything. I hate having to shop at plus size stores. All of the clothes look awful and they aren't stylish. I am so disgusted with myself. am I so disgusted with myself that I will finally get back on track? I don't know. I hate having to fight with myself over food. I have lost all self control.

I last weighed myself on 03/16/2012 and I have not eaten right since. I have not been counting calories and I have been eating everything in sight, including eating out. I don't know why this is such a struggle for me. I feel like I will never get down to a resonable weight.