Back on the Wagon

I have been off the wagon since Thanksgiving. I ate out of control for the last month and I am paying for it. I was down 38 pounds right before Christmas putting my weight at 249 and over the Christmas holiday I gained 12 pounds. That puts my current weight at 261. I know that a very small part is water and bloat but a majority is fat. I'm tired of doing this to myself. So here I am once again starting over. I keep gaining and losing the same 10-12 pounds. 249 was my lowest and I was so proud of myself. So I am back to eating right and back to exercising. I hope that I can stick to my routine and stop the up and down with my weight. I'm not going to beat myself up but I am going to buckle down and get this weight off once and for all.

Taking a break

I'm taking a break from this blog. I have a lot going on in my life personally. Hopefully I won't be gone too long.

Thank You

There are days when I feel overwhelmed at the task ahead of me. Losing over 100 pounds will not be easy. It was certainly easy to put the weight on but I am finding out that it will be hard to reverse the damage and to take it all off. It is so easy to eat the wrong food and simply not exercise. I am amazed at how much support I have received from the blogging community. There are so many people who are going through the same thing I am . I felt at one point in time that there was no one else who knew what I was going through but there are so many people who struggle with the same issues. I feel good knowing that I am not alone in this fight. I want to give a big thank you to the folks who leave comments ( because they really are a pick me up : ) and a thank you to folks who blogs about the same struggle I have. You all inspire me to keep going.

The past two weeks I have not worked out, counted calories nor have I been eating healthy. I don't know how much weight I have gained. I have disabled my scale and won't weigh in again until January. I haven't figured out why I keep doing this to myself. Today I have rededicated myself ( again ) to weight loss. My goal for the day is 1400 calories and at least 2 liters of water.

2 pounds

I am 2 pounds up at 261.8. I hope it's water but it's probably fat. I ate bad on Friday, Saturday , and Sunday. I didn't count calories and I had some cake. A lot of cake. I don't know why the weekends are so hard for me but I am back to eating healthy and I am so tired of eating healthy and working out just to gain weight. I feel like I am saboting ,yself and I need to stop .

I miss my knees.

I broke down and weighed myself this morning. 265. I felt like I should have lost way more than that. I'm going to do a 3 mile workout this evening . I did a 3 mile this morning so I'm hoping that the working out twice a day will kick start more fat loss.