Thursday, October 7, 2010
I'm retaining a little bit of water and according to the scale I am 259.5. I know that I haven't been exercising and eating pretty much everything but a gain of 17.5 pounds in 7 days blows me away. The pants I am wearing today are majorly tight. I am feeling so uncomfortable physically. I feel like this is never ending. Lose, gain, lose, gain. Over and over. I have no idea where my will power and dedication to getting healthy. Clearly I have no control over my eating. i'm starting with small steps again. The first thing I need to do is count my calories for the day. I need to be able to see what I am eating and hold myself accountable for it. I feel super bloated and huge. At 260 I should be feeling huge. I worked out this morning. Not a full on workout but I did get moving. I need to start somewhere.