Monday, June 28, 2010

I have had a bad weekend emotionally and I was eating my pain. I am pulling myself together mentally and physically.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I have a hankering for chocolate chip cookies. Homemade, rich, full of brown sugar, and chewy. YUM. I don't think I will be making any this weekend cause I won't be able to stop eating them. I keep saying I'm gonna stay off the scale but so far I haven't. Ive been taking my water pills since Monday and today my weight was 241.00. I think that will be the last of the water weight that I am holding onto. I'm watching what I eat but I could be doing better at it. I'm just going to take it day by day and set realistic goals for myself. Happy Wednesday everyone.

Monday, June 14, 2010

14 Days = A Massive Gain

In just 11 days I am up 14 pounds. This is make or break time for me. Either I am going to fully commit to getting healthy or I am going to accept being a fat ass and learn to live with being heavy.I just didn't count calories at all and when I don;t do that I don;t hold myself accountable for what I eat. Exercise, what is that ? I haven't done that in a while. It is so simple to lose weight. Eat less and move more but I can't get the hang of it. I can' even achieve simple weight loss goals anymore. Maybe if I journaled every day , that will help me. I have gotten waaaay off rack and can't seem to get back on again.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Setbacks and Sandwiches

I thought I ate ok this weekend, but apparently not cause I am up 1.5 pounds. I didn't count calories and it seems that I need to always do this. So I have been riding my bike but it's is really hard so back to my walk for fitness videos. I haven't used the videos in months but I know that they give me a good workout. I think that I will combine the video with my five minute bike ride.

If I ride for five minutes, that only burns 30 calories and by the end of that time, I am really sweating so my goal is to work up to 30 minutes a day. I hope that by my birthday in November, I can be down to 200 pounds. That gives me 5 months which means I need to lose 8 pounds a month which I think I can acheive if I work hard enough. I wanted a pastrami sandwich sooo bad this whole weekend and I didn't get one cause I thought I was eating good. I feel like since I gained that 1.5 back I could have had my pastrami with mustard and pickles(YUM) since I was gaining anyway . Oh well, back to soup for lunch and grilled chicken for dinner for me. I had a water pill today also but I never remember to take them on the weekends cause I have to take them super early in the morning and on the weekend I'm not usually up at 5 am like I am durin the week . I lost 10 pounds last week and im sure 99 % of that was water. Here's hoping I lose more water and that 1.5 lbs gained is bloat or something .